This is for "Vi An" and all the ladies out there who are heart breakers! Yeah you!


----------------Girls----------------------------
------- -----are like apples-------------------
--------on trees. The best ones-----------
------are at the top of the tree.--------
----The boys dont want to reach------
---for the good ones because they ------
-are afraid of falling and getting hurt.----
Instead, they just get the rotten apples-
---from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples at the top think
-something is wrong with them, when in
--reality, they're amazing. They just
---have to wait for the right boy to-------
----- come along, the one who's-----------
----------- brave enough to-----------------
-----------------climb all----------------------
----------------- the way---------------------
-----------------to the top--------------------
---------------- of the tree.------------------

Vi An I have kept a secret from you for a long time. You are probablly wondering right now WHO I am right? Well this isn't my real name its simply just a handle. Anyhoo. My boyfriend of 14 years spent 9 of those years infactuating over you, not in a creapy way but in a totally humbling and enchanted way! I always knew but I never wanted him to feel bad for his owning feelings just for you. I have let him go and given his freedom and space to his own thoughts what ever they all are?! I'm so over him its been like 4 years now FUCK WOW! He's not a looser. I'm the looser! I'm the easy and well not rotten girl that tree thing describes yeah that be me! I admit I do not enjoy depth it quite frankly bores me, people RAMBLING on and on and on and hardon and onhard about themselves over and overies and ovums over again and aging and egging again and again! GIVE IT A BREAK GAW_D! People are so FULL of themselves.

BUT YOU missy VI AN -- you must lead a very sad beautiful life -- what little I know of you and what all I heard of you, your name preceeds you, you big super star! High&Mighty goddess of the muses, tickling men's fancy areas with your finger dances and speaking str8 to their harts with that deep voice. Poccessing them in their dreams and hipnotizing them as they waken from a dizzy'ing wet dream of YOU!! They say you are the quinticential "ancient of femininity". They say a lot of things when they are consumed by their own ideals and cowardness. They would never admit to it oh NO, they will only secretly confess to it while they masturbate in the public toilets or silently recite their desires for a GURL like you between their prayers. They will NEVER persue you so don't worry, they will remain fleeting as long as you remain strong and full of CONVICTION! I feel so sorry for you, so SORRY for YOU! I repeast YOU must lead a very SAD beautiful life huh?! In your tower over towers. I see you around and ALL around, I don't know what the big HUGE FUSS is all about, whats the commotion?! You're just YOU, me I'm just me -- WHAT THE F$*% makes us so different or you SO unique?! WHAT the hell do they all obsess over you like that, LOOSERS, can't even come up to your face and tell you, they just flee and whine about loosing you, LOOSERS. Is that why your excuse for having a hard time "D8TING guys" because you hide too much within your music career? Lame excuse, admit it I'm on to something?! You need to be more agressive with men sista or atleast give in to their desires once and a DAMNN while huh?! All strong and primo all the time, what do you look like when you wake up take a picture of that and post it why DON'T YOU?! I'm not bitter. I'm not holding anything against you. You are a GREAT competition for me. I still get all the guys I lay my eyes and fingers on. I'm not worried about that sista.

Guys talk to me about you when we walk by you, when we have stood in the corners gawking at you, listening to your fingers language of muses. We watch while lurking and witness the spirits dancing all around you, yes we DO SEE them (the guys always whisper so). I don't see anything but a well put together girl, IF THAT is even what you R? It don't matter. They say F'ing who F'in cares what Vi An is??? Wha? Its just the meer IDEA of YOU they fall in love with -- they would NEVER be brave to touch you with a wet nap in their hands but they will WORSHIP you in their every day dream and woken lives! You get all the old men who finally reached a stage in their SAD lives FULL OF remorse and self-betrays who USE you as an excuse to finally confess their faults, for preventing themselves from the courage to get to know and get to embrace someone LIKE YOU for their lives! I may be easy but YOU are hopeless romantic so count your stars and sing to them often. I'd be damned if one of these guys in Calgary falls in love with you, who would PROUDLY and boldly display you around his arms like they DO me all around town and REALLY REALLY mean it! Those cowards wont, so count your stars and sing to them often.

I am going to go lesbo and feel what it is like to find a girl for my own JUST like you or atleast hah the IDEAL of you.

I LOVE this darkness in me I REVEL in its power over me because you SPARKED it in me, but you wont remember where or when. Its those EYES of yours dark, so dark and piercing, wells of infinity swells my soul and sufficates me, inescapeable glances coy and demure, those don't MESS with ME looks you cast without knowing it. DAMN gurl you are good.

j'ma